for the times

for the times that are gloomy

for the days that feel like not enough

for the times that you don’t have the answers and nothing seems sure anymore

for when you’re not 100%

for when you can’t do what you want to

for when you feel like something’s in the way

for the release that comes later

for the day you get it

for the times you remembered today

for when you stuck with it

for when you didn’t react 

for when you separated the distance 

for when you created more space

for when you told yourself “this is me”

for when you knew in your heart who you were

for the song that you heard on the edges of the world

that brought you back

that told you to stay 

that helped you remember 

that lit the spark

and ignited everything 

until you were consumed by fire

and sprang up from the ashes

and all the pain

all the distractions 

all the fear and anger and ego

fell away

for the times you could look forward again

for the times you were whole


vision to not give up

there is something else 

in the distance

yes, i see it

seems like i am far off

but it’s only a mental trick

a delusion

and i’m not buying it

partially because i can’t afford to

in the distance

is a vision of a bolder person

bright and shining




and i am that person now

and then

and will be

will become even more

than what i am now


like a hungry animal

like one that stalks and paces

like one with its eyes fixated

mind fixated

like one who waits with open jaws

like one who is ready to pounce

like one able to bound off into a run

running without thought to any ending 

any beginning

like a roar

like a whisper

like a low growl

like a snarl 

like one that hunts

like one that makes the others run

like one who darts

and moves

and in its movement 

causes fear

causes a jolt 

a doubt

and suddenly there they are

there it is 

animal, like one who is hungry

who has a deeper desire than most will ever know 

the kind that cannot be stopped 

will never die

will never quit 

will always move