#13

awe

of aloha

how love

and spirit

how magic feels

life

like a mountain

like time

meeting love

and that feeling of freeness

breath

full of spirit

rising like mountain peaks

slowing time’s pace

to the expansiveness of dreams

newness

of vision

vast like the ocean

and how nature soothes

with a familiar call

#12

the experiment:

  • 3 minutes of nothing
  • 2 images
  • 14 words
  • 1 minute to write

 

the result:

(images whirring fan & expectation)

i don’t hear anything but the steady whir

and think this is not silence

and wonder is my peace of mind ruined

by wondering this

 

hear the whir

think silence

and wonder is peace of mind ruined

by wondering

 

#9

symptoms:

constantly running

in some respects a good thing

constantly turning and thinking and speculating

you try to hold it in your mind but it transforms into something else

diagnosis:

i see now that you have trouble being stationary

do you feel as though you are carrying something you can’t get rid of?

an invisible monkey holding onto your neck with firm grip?

yes, this prevents the thoughts from releasing properly so they swirl endlessly instead

you probably have tension in your upper traps from the weight that isn’t your that you carry

treatment:

we need to give you tasks to do

big and small, endless juggling at first

we see that you are nimble

and also we recommend a kind of surgery

well to a degree — it’s non-invasive

one of the things will be to relax enough that we create an opening next to your neck

it’s like bone setting

once we get space in between the monkey’s grip and your neck

we latch onto the invisible monkey with a firm grip of our own

it’s a swift pull and then it’s off

you should notice instant relief in your neck and upper back muscles

over time thoughts will cycle through regularly

prevention:

1) nature

2) breathing deeply

3) gratitude

4) action

5) walks and other forms of physical exercise

6) meditation

7) eating right (less sugar and alcohol which are the monkey’s favorite)

conclusion:

just because you have an invisible monkey strangling your thoughts and keeping them from circulating

don’t let it keep you from a normal, happy life

invisible monkey is treatable

you can be free

#8

dear mother goose

who showed up at the spa today

to give birth

to eggs in the barren planter by the jacuzzi

and to papa goose on the railing enclosing the spa

and to the little rabbit who scampered by later:

may i offer you some spa water?

i hope you feel safe

i hope you like the ambient music and happy hour trail mix available

i have to say — i’m concerned about your nest

they may have to move the eggs

i know it’s this really nice spot

i’m just not sure about it

do you know how honored we felt that you chose us though?

it was a special kind of moment

we know you weren’t to thrilled with us watching you from behind the glass

but we are thinking positively for you

and congratulations!

#7

the swirl

all or ocean

it caught anything sounded

her sounds

angular alternate

another

once strange

that heard of like streaming the gods

inside calling

ear across language

in that doorway of the It

way melodic planet

She

other woman strange

knew

surrounded

heard street her

for a city thought

unlike everywhere

but had languages of in

#6

i don’t care who gets the ring

who wears it

who has the lamps and the cleaning supplies and

don’t you know there are hearts now everywhere?

like the kind that said hellooooo

and after a long yawn

and that the stuff is no longer here

i don’t care

split it a million ways and could all be moved to the garbage dump

swimming in the Pacific gyre

sea of memories of times when they just sat

or spoke to tell story

and my heart goes up up

up up

rate goes up up

up

increase the value of the living beings i once (still do?) knew

as each inch of carpet is dissected like delicacy

everything has it’s price

but it won’t bring them back

neither will the picture frame

the desk

The vacuum

neither will the claims and tears and arguments of what a human heart is capable of feeling

that she didn’t have a limit on how much she put out

as did he

as did she

as did all of them

and my blood boils when i think of how we devour the unimportance of

what’s left

dilated and honed in pupils my heart beats at rebellious pace

to high pitched scream

in order to be grounded once again

in the midst of this greedy confusion

i hate

talking

about

this stuff

#5

more confused than angry

more stuffed away than needing to speak

more afraid of meaning than feeling

more resentful than righteous

more betrayed than mistrustful

more disgusted than indulgent

more agitated

more disappointed

more hurt

more angry about the understanding than the experiencing

such a fleeting moment

it lingers longer than is comfortable

then is washed away by song

and sun

and tomorrow

#4

the stopped second hand on the clock

still, flat water

dancing light reflections

feathers from a thousand pillows fall from the sky

the night’s cold warmth opens its mystery

#3

there is no gift or prize

no win

no accolade for this or anything

no good job pat on the back

no special discount

no exclusive entrance

no understanding or change in perception

no likes thumbs up heart

no applause

there is no finish line

there is no trophy

i don’t come out of each moment feeling like it’s something i can scratch off my list

there is no money

and yet when i tell you what i did today

you make me feel larger than large

and i can see how you see me

i can feel seen