re birth re emergence

i see you have taken the form of the rabbits outside

and the cormorant outside also seems familiar

a goose held my gave a little longer than was comfortable the other day

a deer walked on my path

a hawk swooped in front of our car

i hear the tapping of a woodpecker outside and i knew

a school of fish in the local pond seems to be quite charmed when i look overhead

in never seems to fail that a fly lands on me when i practice tai chi outside

(which i find rather fitting in a way)

and sometimes i see a rainbow right when i need it

each instance takes my breath away for just a second

and i think maybe you all have been here before, haven’t you?

so i’m grateful to my guiding friends

who seem to pop up most unexpectedly



i, the bear

i was a bear once

i walked the earth sniffing

and wandered into this place made of wood where people gathered

of course no one understood that i was actually a young woman who became a bear

could enhabit the bear

no one but like two people

i came there to scare those people in the wooden room

and it worked

they wanted to kill me

but i growled a deep low growl

and i showed my teeth

and i was ready to kill them too

tear them apart for wanting to hurt me and the ones i love

see i was only there because they threatened someone i knew

someone i loved

and i just wanted them to see that you can’t do that without consquences

i didn’t care in that moment whether i would die

i’d die and turn back to a woman and they’d feel oh so bad

yeah right

because when hate lives in your heart where can it go?

i, the bear, growled and the people all shuddered

one didn’t because he knew i wasn’t a bear

and he told the people i was a woman

and then they looked again and they saw that i was a woman wearing the skin of a bear

i smiled at the recognition

didn’t think anyone would get it

but someone did

so i sat with them for a while and i listened to what they had to say

i’m still listening

i’m still the bear

i still change forms

i’m changing forms right now