awe
of aloha
how love
and spirit
how magic feels
life
like a mountain
like time
meeting love
and that feeling of freeness
breath
full of spirit
rising like mountain peaks
slowing time’s pace
to the expansiveness of dreams
newness
of vision
vast like the ocean
and how nature soothes
with a familiar call
the experiment:
the result:
(images whirring fan & expectation)
i don’t hear anything but the steady whir
and think this is not silence
and wonder is my peace of mind ruined
by wondering this
hear the whir
think silence
and wonder is peace of mind ruined
by wondering
thank you
my little leaf
friend who chose
me as your messenger
of the beauty and
hope and
wonderful
surprises
oh boy
you’re so beautiful with the funny things you say
your bright smile
and how you like to be cozy
how dynamic you are
how you see the best ways to move forward
how positive you are about possibility
the calling you have that drives you
the love in your heart that moves you
every day i watch you with awe
and thank you for inspiring me
symptoms:
constantly running
in some respects a good thing
constantly turning and thinking and speculating
you try to hold it in your mind but it transforms into something else
diagnosis:
i see now that you have trouble being stationary
do you feel as though you are carrying something you can’t get rid of?
an invisible monkey holding onto your neck with firm grip?
yes, this prevents the thoughts from releasing properly so they swirl endlessly instead
you probably have tension in your upper traps from the weight that isn’t your that you carry
treatment:
we need to give you tasks to do
big and small, endless juggling at first
we see that you are nimble
and also we recommend a kind of surgery
well to a degree — it’s non-invasive
one of the things will be to relax enough that we create an opening next to your neck
it’s like bone setting
once we get space in between the monkey’s grip and your neck
we latch onto the invisible monkey with a firm grip of our own
it’s a swift pull and then it’s off
you should notice instant relief in your neck and upper back muscles
over time thoughts will cycle through regularly
prevention:
1) nature
2) breathing deeply
3) gratitude
4) action
5) walks and other forms of physical exercise
6) meditation
7) eating right (less sugar and alcohol which are the monkey’s favorite)
conclusion:
just because you have an invisible monkey strangling your thoughts and keeping them from circulating
don’t let it keep you from a normal, happy life
invisible monkey is treatable
you can be free
dear mother goose
who showed up at the spa today
to give birth
to eggs in the barren planter by the jacuzzi
and to papa goose on the railing enclosing the spa
and to the little rabbit who scampered by later:
may i offer you some spa water?
i hope you feel safe
i hope you like the ambient music and happy hour trail mix available
i have to say — i’m concerned about your nest
they may have to move the eggs
i know it’s this really nice spot
i’m just not sure about it
do you know how honored we felt that you chose us though?
it was a special kind of moment
we know you weren’t to thrilled with us watching you from behind the glass
but we are thinking positively for you
and congratulations!
the swirl
all or ocean
it caught anything sounded
her sounds
angular alternate
another
once strange
that heard of like streaming the gods
inside calling
ear across language
in that doorway of the It
way melodic planet
She
other woman strange
knew
surrounded
heard street her
for a city thought
unlike everywhere
but had languages of in
i don’t care who gets the ring
who wears it
who has the lamps and the cleaning supplies and
don’t you know there are hearts now everywhere?
like the kind that said hellooooo
and after a long yawn
and that the stuff is no longer here
i don’t care
split it a million ways and could all be moved to the garbage dump
swimming in the Pacific gyre
sea of memories of times when they just sat
or spoke to tell story
and my heart goes up up
up up
rate goes up up
up
increase the value of the living beings i once (still do?) knew
as each inch of carpet is dissected like delicacy
everything has it’s price
but it won’t bring them back
neither will the picture frame
the desk
The vacuum
neither will the claims and tears and arguments of what a human heart is capable of feeling
that she didn’t have a limit on how much she put out
as did he
as did she
as did all of them
and my blood boils when i think of how we devour the unimportance of
what’s left
dilated and honed in pupils my heart beats at rebellious pace
to high pitched scream
in order to be grounded once again
in the midst of this greedy confusion
i hate
talking
about
this stuff
more confused than angry
more stuffed away than needing to speak
more afraid of meaning than feeling
more resentful than righteous
more betrayed than mistrustful
more disgusted than indulgent
more agitated
more disappointed
more hurt
more angry about the understanding than the experiencing
such a fleeting moment
it lingers longer than is comfortable
then is washed away by song
and sun
and tomorrow
the stopped second hand on the clock
still, flat water
dancing light reflections
feathers from a thousand pillows fall from the sky
the night’s cold warmth opens its mystery
