moments before breaking

sliding down a hill in slow motion

lower you go, tighter your throat

closes up to the head and eyes are

hot 

gotta move

wandering back and forth

pacing like a tiger in a cage

pacing like a bear in a cafe

pacing looking around paranoid at who hears me

and the directness of speech

if i choose to answer honestly is what releases the bubbling

boiling under skin

as i turn in to the wall

don’t want anyone to see

that something that this is hard right now

and i crack under pressure 

but somehow it’s ok

i don’t know why or understand it but it’s ok

and as i look back there is a rainbow 

bright and bold

all colors in perfect view

could i have seen that if i hadn’t needed to take a moment?

i don’t know…