nighttime questions

what do you do with the whispers in your head? thinking all the time and never stopping to trust that inside you know you better than anyone else what are you capable of if you never try? desiring the change to come from everything outside to believe that by moving one step forward you’d be…

healing

sometimes  you stumble across a piece of your life  that gives you a tremendous amount of pain inwardly the emotional self wants to scream or cry  but the disciplined self keeps you  quiet  and breathing  staring straight head and the one thrashes around while the other stays still the other one doesn’t ignore the pain…

and to dance 

as if i was moving through space with my hands like  movement was my language when i drift side to side by side and then look up and see dedication within each purposeful step and i could bend my knees make a welcoming gesture and look before me  out to the world  like the world…

a poem for the sky

between the light of evening  and the darkness of night blue sky whispers pink clouds that can barely be seen and the gulls flap their wings keep moving against the cold breeze and the wind picks up and swirls around you i see golden edged grass bending low i smell wet earth that sinks as…

these flowers 

inside my ribcage contains millions of flowers just in case you were wondering it’s this neverending field that is covered with fresh rain dew drops sit on petals  rolling off when the water has collected to the bottom  each flower is dusted with pollen and when i breathe  bees are like “hey wait there are…

For Mom

When I was young  I spoke to my Mom in gibberish as she used a finger from each hand to help me stand up tall I clasped my fists around her  and she laughed at how strong my grip was I gurgled a response and my mouth formed into a smile She could pick me…

unsaid

as i bend down to the ground hands clasp and i’m gasping but i’m in control you see i’m just this specimen on the plate squirming from the knife yeah? at least that’s what you think “oh shit she’s for real” but i’ve killed myself like seven times today while eating lunch nothing here to…

let me draw you a map

let me draw you a map this is so you don’t get lost i want you to know about the things in this world if you have a keen sense of smell, you’ll be good you will enjoy it here surrounding you is the scent of lime invigorating there are flowers everywhere they are kinds…

hand in hand we go

tumble backwards and forwards  i want to tumble sideways into you  and spread my hands on ground outstretch my fingers and reach for something i can’t quite hold  i hold myself up to the light like i’m under a microscope and scrutinize to find the edge of a seam that runs alongside the edges of…

quiet

sometimes  when you have trouble  you can turn to the quiet and ask it for what you need sometimes that’s all you need sometimes  in the middle of the night or at the start of day you don’t need to ask questions or understand or talk sometimes  if you turn to quiet it gives you…